I remember my first day at Crossfit Wilmington. I was by far the smallest girl in the original box. I weighed a whopping 94 lbs, modified every workout, needed 2 bands to do a pull up, and the list goes on. Most of the workouts included movements at a weight that was my body weight or higher. One day I came in and saw a WOD with a weight under my bodyweight, FRAN. Josh looked at me and asked if I could pick up the weight and do a thruster…I did two or three. He asked me to jump up on the pull up bar and do a couple pull-ups, I did. His next statement to me was, “You are RX’ing this workout.” Yippee!!!! I was so excited. My first workout at Crossfit Wilmington that I could do without modifying it and I was stoked. I began the workout and 21:32 later, I left with tears in my eyes. Those of you that know me know I am not a crier. FRUSTRATION had set in! Fran is typically a sub 5 minute workout and it took me over 4 times as long. I was frustrated, wanted to give up, cry, all of the above-but in everything I had ever endured in life I knew I was not capable of giving up! I turned FRUSTRATION into DETERMINATION.
I am not the best at everything we do in the gym, however, I set small and achievable goals for myself until I became efficient and able to RX workouts. This took time, dedication; the ability to say today just wasn’t my day, and taking recovery days. My first goal was to get off the bands on the pull up bar. I started with a green and a purple band. Every day, I came in and worked on pull ups with a smaller band…then after about 2 months, I was doing strict pull ups and stringing together kipping pull ups. I practiced pull ups every day that I went into the gym, and finally, I became efficient at them. Bodyweight exercises were not my nemeses’ though.
The deadlift, clean and jerks, snatches, shoulder press, etc. FORM, FORM, FORM!!! Tony must have said that to me at least a million times! It stuck T. I worked on form and technique so that I could lift what the other ladies were lifting. The other ladies at this time would be Dawn, Taylor, Abby, Maria, etc. Those of you that came from the first gym know that these ladies are strong! My inspirations! But the 95 lb clean and jerk was their warm-up, my bodyweight! I was FRUSTRATED, but again turned that FRUSTRATION into DETERMINATION! I was tiny, but I wanted to be strong. I started adding more protein to my diet and adding muscle. I put on about 9 lbs within a year. I now maintain a bodyweight of 107-108. I eat A LOT, but I train hard!
In 2010, I over trained…yes, me…overstrained! I tore my rotator cuff after doing more than what I was supposed to! This part is
important…my FRUSTRATION turned into OVER TRAINING!!!! My DETERMINATION had me in the gym almost every day. I did strength, Crossfit, Group Fitness classes-I didn’t train with purpose. Then it was too late! Torn rotator and I could do NOTHING! I was miserable! I needed a goal. I decided to do an Olympic Lifting Meet. I began a strength program just squatting, signed up for an Oly Meet, and didn’t lift anything overhead until 2 weeks before the meet. I competed in the 48kg weight class and placed 1st. I was hooked. But like everything, FRUSTRATION, set in. My weights sounded like pocket change when I dropped my bar! I wanted more…a lot more. So, back to it. I began training for my next meet, then my next meet, then my next. I found that in order to keep my FRUSTRATION DETERMINATION, I had to set goals for myself. I am not naïve in thinking I will get everything I train for overnight, because I know I have a lot of work to do ALWAYS. But my DETERMINATION helped me to train with purpose. I enjoy competing. It holds me accountable, pushes me, humbles me, and drives me to be better. I want to be the best in all that I do in life, whether in the gym or outside. I put 110% into everything I do.
FRUSTRATION used to be a word in my dictionary, but as a good friend recently told me, “Try word replacement therapy Meagan!” He was right…replace FRUSTRATION with DETERMINATION. You will find results in yourself, whether in a workout or in life, that will simply amaze you and everyone else.